Happy in Celibacy

Nine months. That is my new record for not having sex. I was dating and thought if I worked on the relationship instead of having sex that I would probably find a better relationship. However, it kinda backfired on me. All I could think about was sex. While I talked to a guy I was imagining him in bed. When I met a guy I was wondering how long it should take before we got in the bed.

It did turn out to be a good line for the guys that would take you on one date and expect you to give it up. I would simply say,

I’m happy in my celibacy.

Because for a while I really was. After losing my maintenance man B, I decided to retreat and reexamine what I was doing in relationships with men. I may have been a little lonely and missed the touch of a man, but I was learning to be happy by myself and not need the dependency of sex to feel close to a man.

But how long can a woman really go without sex. Nine months. That was my cut off. Self gratification was no longer satisfying. And toys could not replicate some of the things that a man could do.

I had started dating *Phil, and things were going well (more about this later). We were dating a couple months and really getting to know each other. We were also having high school-like make out sessions. Kissing for a couple hours really wears down that celibacy wall. Within a few weeks, I was almost begging him and soon my celibate cycle was over. I'll tell you more about Phil later

Now I’m looking for a new maintenance man until I can find that real relationship. I didn’t find that not having sex created any better relationships with any of the guys that I was seeing. In fact, I was more stressed out and uptight than when I was getting some.

What do you think? Are there any real benefits with being celibate?

*Real names have been changed