Blogged Up Married Guy

Ha, I must’ve been talking about Married Guy too much, because who booty called me Friday night at 1a.m.? Married Guy of course. He first sent a text that I ignored. He then called me 10 minutes later, and I let him know that I was seeing someone and wasn’t really interested sleeping with him. We hung up, but I had never been happier that I met Divorced Dad (just going to start calling him “D”) until then. I realized if I hadn’t met him, I probably would’ve hooked up with MG again.

I thought about how great the sex with MG used to be, but I don’t want to mess things up with D, just because of some sex. Plus what I have with D is so much different. He appreciates and praises me, he makes me feel special and loved and I’m so happy when I’m around him, that I don’t even want to ruin that. Anyways, I hadn’t been with MG since September of 2010, but it wasn’t for a lack of trying.

MG and I have remained cordial and somewhat friends, even though he hurt my feelings pretty bad (more on the ending soon). We’ve exchanged pleasantries for birthdays and holidays and even had lunch in May. Where he actually complimented me on my journey to weight loss. During my bout of celibacy, I started texting him trying to see him. I was desperate for sex, but really didn’t want to try anything new since my last romp in the sack left me pretty disappointed. At least with MG I knew what I was getting. Even if I was going to put myself through more hurt and humiliation, I was so desperate for sex and my self esteem so low, that I was going to go there again.

When I looked back at my text messages, I realized that I had texted MG the night before I met D. I’m glad that MG ignored me that night and I went on to meet D. If I had hooked up with MG the night before, I probably wouldn’t have opened myself up to meeting someone new. MG standing me up that day was the best thing he could ever do for me. And part of the reason I wrote, Leaving a Cheater.

I really enjoy my relationship with D. He makes me laugh, appreciates me and makes me feel special. I don’t know if I’ve ever been so happy with someone. In fact, the next morning the first thing I did was text D and tell him I was happy that I met him. To which his sweet answer was just “I feel the same babe!” I don’t want to do anything to hurt or disappoint D, and sex with MG definitely wasn’t worth it. It probably wouldn’t even be as good as I remembered. MG may have had me trying different things, but sex with D is a lot more intimate. He looks into my eyes and listens for what pleases me. Our sexual chemistry is just crazy and I don’t have the need to go back to MG for the sex any more.

And even if things don’t work between D and I, I am just happy to have met him. I have finally been able to let go of Married Guy, both emotionally and finally physically.